Well, I apologize for not posting for so long. Two reasons:
I am really just that busy and tired AND it’s tough to decide what to
post and what to keep private. We have
experienced many surprises in our journey of adoption. The first of which is
that our little boy does not have as many special needs as we expected. He has ADHD and he is an older adopted
child. As I suspected, his other delays
have mostly resolved. They say children
from an orphanage are about 2 years behind, but NOT SO in our case. He is right on track and ahead of the game on
some ways. He has learned the basics as
well as academics pretty quickly.
At first, as Jeff says, it was a little like having a
toddler in a 9 year old body. The
language barrier, the house safety and personal boundary issues, the pet rules,
were all the same as we have taught our toddlers. As much as I resented the term language
barrier, I surrender and use it now because it is in fact a barrier. My flippant catch phrase was always, “It’s not
Swahili, it’s Spanish—comprendo?” Conversational Spanish and even Adoptive Family
Spanish—not a problem. Trying to
articulate the complexity of the values and ideas that need to be presented and
understood—big challenge. Thank God for
Google Translate.
We have struggled most with the twinning issue. We are committed to making our situation
work, with God’s help, but I would not recommend twinning to anyone considering
it. Our boys are six months apart. Because of their opposite personalities, we
have seen a lot of jealousy on the part of the new one. Everyone suspects the opposite, but because
of Matthew’s nature and special needs, he really has been prepared to share his
toys, his parents, his help, everything with a new brother for many
months. Unfortunately, the new brother
is not able to share as readily. I didn’t
realize what an issue ownership can produce. Also, with Matthew's needs, we were advised to either get a waiting child because so much information is available about them, or do a hosting/fostering situation first. This is excellent advice and I pass it on.
Our new guy has many struggles, but overall, each day is an
improvement. And to follow my previous
car analogy, when we do hit a bump in the road, we are at first surprised and
then reminded of what a rough road he has had.
We made it through Christmas with only 2 meltdowns. And thanks to Jen Hatmaker’s post on living
with people that sabotage big days, I had a letter prepared to reinforce the
fact that we love him and want him and understand his efforts and are so proud
of him. (see next/previous post to read the letter--"the Antidote"). I didn’t get ahead of putting the
ornaments on the tree, though. I have
never made 5 keepsake ornaments so quickly in all my life as I did the day we
decorated the tree and I realized he didn’t have any.
I am thankful I am homeschooling the boys. We are intentional about giving them time
apart and giving individual attention to each boy. Spending the day with the boys helps with
bonding and keeping consistency. The
social worker suggested sending our new one to school if the relationship
between the boys didn’t improve, but we have decided to keep them both home for
now. We will reevaluate each year as we
did with the girls.
We are in or near the language bubble phase with older
adopted children where they have forgotten about half of their native language
and only know about half of their new language.
We have been diligent about being around our bilingual friends and letting
him watch videos in both languages, but it is still happening. It is extra bad because he thinks he
understands what we mean, but many times he doesn’t fully understand it
correctly and in his defensiveness, everything is taken personally.
We are still trying to figure out what is situational, what
is personality, what is cultural and what is just plain having 2 boys in the
house! Some days are downright frightening and some days are just as I imagined
when we were dreaming and planning this whole deal.
I hope that anyone reading this feels free to
contact me with any specific questions.
I would be more than happy to share from our experience. (
celebr8yourlife2@yahoo.com)
The most important thing I can share is to shower them often
with acceptance, love, affirmation, and a vision for their bright future. I have found that to be the answer to most
situations have arisen so far. I will
not continue to post because I don’t know how much to share. I forget about the deep shame that can be associated with
adoption since we are coming at it from the desiring, pursuing, choosing
side of the situation. I will wait until
I can ask Esneider for permission to share things.